2 Topics today: Miscarriage and Funerals
It won't be as dark as you think, I promise. Get out your Spotify, folks.
Miscarriage
I suffered one in March. I was 12 weeks along and I feel like my heart was ripped out. Why does this happen to so many of us and how can we move on from it? I guess we don't and won't know. I sure am thankful for my daughter, she really is a blessing. Now, 5 months later, we're putting the pieces back together and trying to get our baby. This has not been easy at all. I feel like all I see is pregnant woman all around me saying "I wasn't even trying! How surprised are we?" Yeah yeah, I get it, I'm broken. Okay, that is dramatic but I feel broken. I have this job, as a woman, to reproduce. How in the world did I fail at that? If you've had a miscarriage, you get these feelings. There are plenty of blogs about miscarriage, blogs that are more well written and beautiful than mine. I wanted to write this up for one reason; a song. A friend of mine sent this song to me and although it makes me cry every time, I just find it helpful .
Title credit goes to Tyrone Wells - The Most
Second Verse:
Midnight I'm fast asleep
2,000 miles away from you
you're crying as you bleed
You wake me up and break the news
how do you start again
when the whole world ends
there's nothing that makes this right
but I'm on my way tonight
I'll be here
When you need me, when you need me,
when you need me the most
when you need me, need me the most
I'm always here for you,
no you are not alone
When you need me, when you need me,
when you need me the most.
Funerals
This was sparked by 'Six Songs of You" project. Here are mine. It took FOR-EVER because I have about 10 songs for each category. The Funeral song really stumped me. Do I want people to be sad? Do I want people to celebrate me? What the most general funeral song? Truth is, I want people to hear the lyrics and I want them to think of me. I actually had a few songs for this category because, well, they speak to me. I still remember my grandma's funeral. My grandpa said to me "Jess, I need one thing from you. Please find me your grandmas tape of Wind Beneath My Wings - Bette Midler, I need to play that at her funeral." Of course he did, she loved that song, no other song would have fit. It was played at her funeral and to this day, I can not hear that without thinking of her.
I went through a few songs before finding the perfect one for this category, I want that lasting legacy. Something for the people I leave behind to hold on to:
I had a few more but none of them were really 'me'. After all, that was the title of the project. I thought real hard. Wherever You Will Go - The Calling. I adore this song, I have adored this song ever since the day it came into my life. This is the song, it's beautiful, it has to be this song. Now, I'm not planning on leaving this earth anytime soon, but when I do, play this at my celebration.
Sticking to this same project, a few other notable mentions:
- I've already blogged about In My Arms - Plumb, I picked my grand finale song based on my daughter. No question, this song is me, she is my world.
- The Perfect Love Song? It's tough, there are some really great ones out there that make me think of my husband but none more than the winner of this category. Your Body is a Wonderland - John Mayer was in there for awhile. Also, The Only One For Me - Brian McKnight.
- Let me add a happy note to finish this off. I can't even pick one single song that makes me shake my butt. There's a playlist for that.
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